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Nothing to Prove, Everything to Give
For most of my life, I believed love, closeness and affection had to be earned. That I needed to be successful and do something impressive to be accepted and loved. If I worked hard enough, performed well enough, maybe... Read More
In the Company of Belonging: Finding Home in Aloneness, Loneliness, and Solitude
Can you believe it’s been a full year since I moved to Thailand? In that time, I’ve been navigating the shifting terrain of a new life—balancing spiritual practice, creativity, friendship, and solitude. A second ten-day silent meditation retreat, batches... Read More
The Paradox of “Saving Face”
Verb save face – third-person singular simple present – saves face – present participle – saving face – simple past and past participle – saved face 1. (idiomatic, intransitive) To take an action or make a gesture intended to... Read More
Letting Go to Begin Again
It’s been anything but quiet, and not by accident. A lot has changed. Some of it was planned—some of it arrived like a wave I couldn’t stop. And didn’t want to stop. I quit my job after 25 years.... Read More
Uncertainty & Desire
I approach the one-year mark of retiring from a 25-year academic career and moving to Thailand. Life has brought me great experiences, some attempts at reprogramming of ‘merikkkhan life propaganda and integrating cultural differences. I can see some real... Read More
Remembering Jay – First Yahrzeit
I sit here and write this at “The Much Room Cafe” in Chiang Mai, Thailand. I like to come here because it has wide open space outdoors with big trees and a waterfall. But today something is different. I... Read More
