Welcome to the Brain Dump

Let’s call this what it is: a space for mental gymnastics, overthinking, and the occasional dignified rant. I’ve never found writing particularly easy—or enjoyable, to be honest. As a kid, it felt like punishment. As an adult, it still kind of does. But here I am, doing it anyway, in public no less.

Why? Because something shifted. Maybe it was retirement, grief, Thailand, or just finally running out of excuses. Whatever the cause, I’ve decided to embrace the mess, the meaning, and the mildly uncomfortable act of sharing thoughts online.

This isn’t a blog with answers or life hacks. It’s more of a trail of breadcrumbs through my brain. Sometimes there’s clarity. Sometimes there’s chaos. Occasionally, there’s insight—or at least a decent metaphor.

Thanks for stopping by. No shoes required.

Let’s call this what it is: a space for mental gymnastics, overthinking, and the occasional dignified rant. I’ve never found writing particularly easy—or enjoyable, to be honest. As a kid, it felt like punishment. As an adult, it still kind of does. But here I am, doing it anyway, in public no less.

Why? Because something shifted. Maybe it was retirement, grief, Thailand, or just finally running out of excuses. Whatever the cause, I’ve decided to embrace the mess, the meaning, and the mildly uncomfortable act of sharing thoughts online.

This isn’t a blog with answers or life hacks. It’s more of a trail of breadcrumbs through my brain. Sometimes there’s clarity. Sometimes there’s chaos. Occasionally, there’s insight—or at least a decent metaphor.

Thanks for stopping by. No shoes required.


Fresh From The Page

The newest pieces asking to be written. These may or may not fit neatly into a category — but they’ve come through anyway.

The Paradox of “Saving Face”

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Verb save face  – third-person singular simple present – saves face  – present participle – saving face  – simple past and past participle – saved face 1. (idiomatic, intransitive) To…

Letting Go to Begin Again

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It’s been anything but quiet, and not by accident. A lot has changed. Some of it was planned—some of it arrived like a wave I couldn’t stop. And didn’t want…

Uncertainty & Desire

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I approach the one-year mark of retiring from a 25-year academic career and moving to Thailand. Life has brought me great experiences, some attempts at reprogramming of ‘merikkkhan life propaganda…

Remembering Jay – First Yahrzeit

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I sit here and write this at “The Much Room Cafe” in Chiang Mai, Thailand. I like to come here because it has wide open space outdoors with big trees…

Divided No More – Part 2

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I have written a couple of pieces about how I was living a split and divided life. This division within me started as a child inside a framework of generational…

Vulnerability as Surrender

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I have been on a search for universal truths that all humans experience and can relate to. I have also been curious about how the emotion of vulnerability relates to…

Early Traces: Where The Voice Began

Where it all started—raw thoughts, journal-style entries, spiritual inquiry, and early reflections.

Intimate-Compassionate Conversation and Shadow

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Entering into intimate/sexual space with others requires an awareness in communicating our thoughts to others without shaming or blaming the other.  It also requires a compassionate effort in receiving others…

Vulnerability in “Sexing”

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Vulnerability…what does it mean? It means getting outside the protective ego and exposing your weaknesses and your desires in the face of being destroyed. If you want to have great…

Touch, Trust & Tenderness

Essays that dig into the terrain of intimacy, erotic honesty, vulnerability, and the shadows we carry.

The BDSM Mysticism – Domination and Submission

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We live in a culture of sexuality where people can be confused around their desire to engage in the acts of dominating/submission (d/s). Some people swear by the d/s lifestyle…

Relationship as Spiritual Practice

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Modern-day relationships are challenging and full of opportunities for increased personal awareness and growth. As our society enters a time of transition from the ego and the thinking mind to…

Intimate-Compassionate Conversation and Shadow

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Entering into intimate/sexual space with others requires an awareness in communicating our thoughts to others without shaming or blaming the other.  It also requires a compassionate effort in receiving others…

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